How is it that sometimes we just cannot say what we actually mean? or maybe…we don’t even know what we actually mean because that feeling hasn’t been translated to words yet. A feeling which is only that – nothing we can define or convey through our limited language.
Just today, I thought I was being considerate in stopping short of an argument and conceding to my husband. ‘You win’ …I don’t have anything else to offer on this ( not because I actually don’t,but I weighed my options and decided whether arguing about a dinner party menu was worth it or not…Not, was my decision).
Guess what? That wasn’t the right answer either. No – the right answer was to keep arguing…or maybe to concede after some arguing…maybe to say, ohhhh, of course then…..You must be right…I hadn’t thought of it that way…oh…what a brilliant idea…(you get the point) Play out the fact that I was conceding, make a presidential speech – not just suddenly give in.
It is in the end, reminders to myself, in times which are excessively trying, that I can, in fact, be above this. This moment is only ‘this moment.’ It is not the next moment, it is not the past moment, it is not something that will stay with me because I choose for it not to stay with me – right as I write this blog – I choose for those negative feelings to disappear . I choose for them to leave me now and return as elevated thoughts upon myself. I am a peaceful soul…remember? I choose not to give others the power to inluence my own positive energy. I choose to live my life with only the thoughts that allow myself to be my best self. After all… isn’t that the only real way to live?
